Simply My Insight

           I have really grown a lot in the last year…even more so in the last 6 months. I went through a period where I didn’t know who I was and mentally I was in pieces. I had to really pull myself together. It took time , prayer , and mostly importantly, action . Saying and DOING are two different things…. I kept telling myself what I needed to do, what I wanted to do, but wasn’t DOING anything. Finally, I set a plan and then I proceeded to execute what I planned out. I started going to church again (I don’t go regularly, but I go 1-2 times a month). I’m not that big on “religion”, but I am very spiritual. I got back in school to finally finish my degree that I have started and stopped multiple times. I moved to a city where I wouldn’t have any distractions and could stay focused. I pray daily…actually numerous times a day. I set 3 alarms for the same time everyday to remind myself to stop, meditate, and pray on what’s current...

When it comes to forgiveness, we have had our back and forth. Growing up as a child in an abusive home, I forgave every time it happened. As a quiet little girl who was picked on and bullied in school, I forgave. I would still try to be friends with those kids. I was the poster child for forgiveness. Then something changed in me. By the age of 13, you couldn’t look at me in a bad way and think I’d speak to you again. Forgiveness was nonexistent in my life. And that is no exaggeration. I can remember that as a teenage girl and young adult, my mottos were “I carry grudges like I carry my purse, and I take my purse EVERYWHERE.”   And “Jesus forgives, not ME!” If I felt like someone wronged me in anyway, I would be done with them. No need to say sorry or apologize in anyway. You would be wasting your breath. I remember a time when I was 21, my father said something to me over the phone that I didn’t like. I hung up the phone on him and didn’t speak to him for about 8 years....